Sunday, 16 November 2014

is this the end of the In the Making blog?

Is this the end of the In the Making blog?
I think it is my friends.

I started this blog in December of 2007, and it's been a long ride. There have been ups, and there have been downs. Mostly there have been ups. Being creative, in whatever shape or form it might be - photography, paper crafts, party hosting, digi scrap or interior decorating, is incredibly important in my life. It is what relaxes me, what gets me excited, and what makes me feel like I am actually good at something in this world. Having had a place to share my joys has been so very gratifying and I am eternally grateful for all the love I have been shown throughout the years here on the blog.

But life doesn't always go as smoothly as planned. Sometimes life takes you on a crazy and exhausting ride. As you might know, I have been on such a ride for over a year now. I have been trying to get through a really tough time due to burnout, exhaustion, and depression, and it has forced me to change large parts of my life. Part of that was to go low tech and log off the computer, to allow myself to "just be" and not feel like I have to perform and excel in everything I do. I struggled with this for the longest time, but when my computer died in a couple of months ago I finally got that last push.

So, I have quit my creative team gigs and put all my online obligations on hold. With the downtime I have felt a lot less stressed and less inclined to create content for the blog. I feel like it's ok for me to be tired at the end of the day, it's ok for me to just be me with the people I love, to not constantly try to "make and share". And to tell the truth, I like it. I like the more relaxed approach to life that is starting to peek through that high wall of performance anxiety I have built up all my life.

And as a natural result of this, I have decided to put this blog to bed.
Will I return to blogging again? Perhaps I will, but then again, perhaps I won't. I don't know what the future will bring.

So thank you, and take care!
I know I will!

Friday, 4 January 2013

my 2012

I have, for many years, round up my year by answering some questions in this age old questionaire from who knows where. It's been a fun way to take stock of the year that has passed. I thought it would be fun to share it with you here. What do you say, is there anything that surprises you about me?


1. What did you do in 2012 that you'd never done before?
Apply for a learner’s permit to finally take my driver’s license

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Didn’t make any for 2012 - did make one for 2013, but it’s a secret

3. What countries did you visit?
Denmark, Germany, Italy




4. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
Stress free life, interest in exercise

5. What day from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The day I gave notice to end my contract with JessicaSprague.com

6. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Listening to my body and mind saying SLOW DOWN
7. What was your biggest failure?
Having a body and mind needing said slow down


8. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I had stomach issues for most of spring and early summer due to stress, neck and shoulder pain throughout the year, my usual migraines

9. What was the best thing you bought?
A new bed and headboard


 
10. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Mr. Z had me screaming quite a few times during the year. This was unbelievable


11. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Swedish right wing racists
12. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Visiting Rome, seeing Michael Bublé, getting a new bed, gifts on my birthday and Christmas
13. What song will always remind you of 2011?
Running to "Give Me Everything" by Pitbull feels like classic 2012

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14. What do you wish you'd done more of?
See friends and family, take photos, go on holiday, and drink champagne


15. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Work, worry

16. How did you spend Christmas?
With my beloved family, eating, laughing, taking it easy


 
17. What was your favorite TV program?
Football (soccer), Sherlock, Big Bang Theory, Real Housewives of Beverly Hills
18. What was the best book you read?
The Hunger Games trilogy
19. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Not sure I discovered anything new that grabbed me

20. What did you want and get?
Love from my friends and family, a raise, beautiful things on my wish list

21 What did you want and not get?
To win the lottery


22. What was your favorite film of this year?
Batman Rises
23. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I celebrated early with the husband, I turned 38

24. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Winning so much money that I could do whatever I fancied every day for the rest of my life

25. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?
Look as good as you can for as little money and effort as possible




26. What kept you sane?
The husband


27. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Jamie Oliver, Michael Bublé




28. What political issue stirred you the most?
I guess it is all encompassed under the “human rights” umbrella – racism and sexism especially

29. Who did you miss?
Friends who are too far away to see, and who I didn’t have time to see
30. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012
You’re just a girl, with ambitions larger than your body and mind can handle, and that is ok

Monday, 29 October 2012

closing up shop

Let me tell you a story. It's about a girl who took a few classes online and found a new way of expressing her creativity. One day she got the amazing opportunity to not just use that creativity for her own pleasure but also share it with the world. From this opportunity a dream was formed. A dream to maybe one day being able to create all the time, every day. It was a beautiful, shiny, and colourful dream.

The only thing was that the girl was growing increasingly run down from not only working on that dream of hers, but also holding up a steady job, a demanding one at that, and trying to be a good wife, daughter, sister, friend, and not the least healthy person. There weren't enough hours in the day or energy in her body to juggle it all. The girl was starting to lose sleep, to forget things - both big and little things - and to show signs of several physical problems related to severe stress syndrome.

The girl faced a tough choice; to power on and hope for the best or to make changes. Changes that would make her function better in her day to day world, to be a better person to her loved ones, and to be able to get up in the morning without having to rely on pain killers and medication to get through the day. Changes that would mean that her dream had to die.

Facing the fact she was just a simple girl with a dream bigger than her mind and body could handle was very difficult and needed many tears and long talks with her husband. But in the end, she understood it was for the best and she did it. She made the changes.

That girl, she was me. I was the one who had a dream of designing. I was the one who a couple of months ago said enough. I stopped designing and slowly started on my road to recovery. After six months of taking care of myself, and getting back to just expressing my creativity for fun when I have the time and energy for it, I know that even though it breaks my heart it was the right decision.

So, it is with very heavy heart that I am now closing my shop at JessicaSprague.com. From today and a week forward everything in my shop will be 50% off. After that all my designs will be gone for good. If there is anything in my shop that you like but haven't already bought, now is the time!



Please come over and visit my shop at JessicaSprague.com!

I want to thank each and every one of you for your support and encouragement in the past couple of years. For all the shout outs, the emails, the comments, and the praise I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. And to all those of you who bought my products - I will forever be grateful for your business. You all have my eternal love!

I hope you will all continue to come over and visit me here on my blog. I will continue to scrapbook, take photographs, create books, and throw over the top parties. And who knows, maybe there will be another adventure waiting for me around the corner?

All my love
Linda

Friday, 5 October 2012

interlude

After almost three days with a killer migraine I needed something to bring a smile to my face. This did the trick.



Now, carry on  ...

Sunday, 16 January 2011

Doing the New52 dance

I've been battling rosacea and major sensitive skin for a couple of years and one of the things that I had very high on my list of new things to do for the year was to find a skin care regimen that actually works for me. I have tried countless brands from the department store make up counters and home remedies. All with the same result; absolutely no change what so ever. So I figured it was time for professional help (lol, took me long enough eh).

So the new thing this week was an appointment with a dermatologist, facial treatment, and shiny bottles in my bathroom cabinets.


As with all cronic issues, rosacea hasn't gone poof away, and mysteriously I don't look like Penelope Cruz yet, but I'm giving this a shot, hoping at least it will help a little.

Sunday, 9 January 2011

One new thing at a time

First off, I just want to say that I've had some really lovely comments here on the blog and through email with regards to my review of 2010 and from the bottom of my heart; I thank you so very much. Sharing insecurities is a touchy subject I guess but I am glad I did because your messages to me have validated me and shown me that I'm not alone. So thank you all!

Now then, I said last week that I was tempted to try out New52 to challenge myself to grow as a person, and to have some fun on the way. Well I thought about it, and then some. I thought about what kind of new things I would like to try this year, how much of a challenge it would be, and how much guts it would take to do some of them. I came up with quite an impressive list. But reading and reviewing the list made me realize that many of them would be really difficult to document in a way that I could upload to a computer and do something with. And the OCD part of me just can't bear to not have all my ducks in a row, lol. OK, so what to do? Back to square one?

Actually no. I have decided to break the mold and not commit to a certain format, and to not document with photos that are to be compiled into a book, and  to not be disturbed by the fact that it is whatever it is - some weeks nothing, some weeks huge things that I can just keep within me, and some weeks photo ops that I can share here. I really want to do this to challenge myself and to hopefully look back at the end of the year and feel more positive about myself and my actions than I did looking back at 2010. With this in mind I have decided to keep the list off this blog for now. I might compare what I have done and share later on though.

Still with me? :)

One of the things on my list was to cook dinner for the husband once a month. It's no secret that cooking is something I do not do. Being married to a chef certainly has its perks. Fabulous food every day being the biggest one! But a drawback has been that my abilities in the kitchen have shrunk to stupid little things like boiling eggs. So in an effort to change that, and to spoil the husband a little, I will try take charge of the pots and pans at least twelve times this year.

So last night it was premiere night. Oh man I was nervous! I had planned the menu around the promise of champagne from the husband and the importance of easy to follow recipes. Did I make it through to the end without a melt down and without burning the place to the ground? Yes siree! I sure did.

(This is where I tell you to ignore that I wore no make up and my hair was a mess)






And the actual food, you ask? Yup, it was edible!
Salmon ceviche for starter


Green pea soup with bacon and ciabatta for main


Chocolate covered stawberries with Italian cookies for dessert


You won't believe how proud I was after this. I haven't cooked a full meal entirely on my own while the husband was actually in the house for ages and ages. So this will definitely happen again.

Sunday, 2 January 2011

I usually don't share all to much of my own life here on this blog. I kind of set out from the beginning for it to be about my creative life. But every year for the past ten or so I've been doing a review at the end of the year. I've been writing it in past blogs and online journals. But I've let them go as of late and I still wanted to do the review.

So here it is. In all its starkness and candidness. It contains some heavy stuff that I haven't shared here before - like the fact that my first year as a designer has been not only fantastic and exciting, but also hard for me on a personal level. I started a new demanding job as well this year and the two of them together managed to rock my boat. My way of tackling that was to work more and design more which of course only meant less time for other tings and more anxiety on my part. But with the new year I am taking on a new attitude and am hoping for a brigther and better year. So, with that, here is my review of 2010.

1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?
Started designing digi scrap products for profit and selling with js.com

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I never make them but I had planned to exercise which I failed.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My friend Anneli had Linnea on June 20th
My sister in law Jenny had Elias on June 27th
My sister Frida had Wilmer on November 17th

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Thankfully not this year

5. What countries did you visit?
Denmark, Germany, Switzerland, Italy, and a lot of Sweden

6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
Balance – I struggled a lot with combining the workload of my day job and designing with a normal social life. I feel I failed at being a good wife, daughter, sister, friend.

7. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The birthdays of “our” kids
May 22nd when we saw Michael Bublé in concert and Inter won Champions league
November 7th when MFF became Swedish champions
November 19th when I saw Lady Gaga in concert

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Becoming a digital designer at js.com, kicking ass at work.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not being able to find balance in my life.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Apart from two stellar colds I was healthy and had the best year in many with regards to migraines.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
For me – new computer, but mostly I am more pleased with gifts we got others.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Johan, he puts up with me and my mini meltdowns. Liv Esteban, for talking me out of giving up designing.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Some peoplein my workplace.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Mortgage, summer holiday, food, computer.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Babies
Being offered to join the design team at js.com
Michael Bublé
Lady Gaga
Holiday in Italy

16. What song will always remind you of 2010?
Från och med du – Oskar Linnros
Rude Boy – Rihanna
Fuck You – Cee Lo Green

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier
ii. thinner or fatter? About the same
iii. richer or poorer? About the same

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Spent time with family and friends.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Worry and agonize about things.

20. How did you spend Christmas?
With my family at our place, eating, snuggling, laughing. It was awesome.

22. Did you fall in love in 2010?
With “our” kids, new and old, and with Johan.

23. How many one-night stands?
None

24. What was your favorite TV program?
True Blood
Criminal Minds
Biggest Loser

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No, hate is such a strong word. There are a few I strongly dislike though.

26. What was the best book you read?
I think I only read two … biographies by Nikki Sixx and Slash. The latter was better.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Oskar Linnros and thanks to Johan I rediscovered Guns n Roses.

28. What did you want and get?
Love
A new computer
A lovely holiday trip

29. What did you want and not get?
A winning lottery ticket.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
I am having a hard time remembering what films we’ve seen this year. I thought Iron Man 2 was a disappointment … as well as Toy Story 3. I did like Daybreakers …

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 36 and spent the day with Johan in gorgeous Cinque Terre. It was a fantastic day with lots of wonderful sights, food, wine, and laughs. Best birthday ever.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Being able to do everything I wanted and and spend time with everyone I care for.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
Casual chic? Meh, some days jeans and a top, some days rock n roll sexy, and some days classic. I’m a fashion eclectic.

34. What kept you sane?
Johan
Liv Esteban
Microsoft Outlook

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Michael Bublé
Robbie Williams
Jamie Oliver
nothing new, lol.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Swedish election. Just ugh.

37. Who did you miss?
Friends and family that I didn’t get to see due to working too much.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
My new boss. Such a classy lady. She gave me a lot of support and made me feel like maybe I wasn’t half bad after all.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010:
You can’t do it all.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
“You make sense of madness when my sanity hangs by a thread”

And there it is, people. A year of great highs and huge lows. I guess there is a lesson in there somewhere ... see number 39.

Saturday, 11 December 2010

Good grief - creativity has taken me over

Can you believe it? Another layout? Has the lady gone batshit crazy? Are there little gremlins running around inside her head? Has she been captured by digi scrap aliens with a hidden agenda? Well, anything is possible folks because I don't really know where this sudden burst of scrapping creativity has come from! But I guess I shouldn't complain really? I kinda dig it and I hope you do too!

This layout is about none other than little old me! The husband took a photo of me at a wedding this summer and I feel it captured exactly how I was feeling that day. I certainly don't feel pretty or even good about my appearance on a regular day basis and so I wanted to scrap it. To help me remember and to help me feel better about myself a little more often.


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